I had one of those moments tonight.
You know which ones I mean?
I mean the ones that I try to capture forever, the ones that make my heart swell with happiness and love.
And as much as I try to whip out my phone to take a picture-it just doesn't compare to the moment that I want to capture...
I'd just finished nursing and rocking her to sleep.
She was so still, except for the light breathing and her chest moving up and down.
Her bottom lip stuck out and her cheeks plump...in some weird way, she resembled a little old grumpy man. (think of the movie, Up.)
I ran my finger over her chubby wrist, tucked her hair behind her crooked ear, and sat her up to burp her. She remained still but hunched over like that grumpy old man.
I kissed her chubby rosy cheek, over and over again.
Her tiny fingers were wrapped around my one finger and I rubbed her chubby little hand.
I placed her on my shoulder and patted her back; her head nestled in my neck.
I kissed her again and nibbled on her cheek.
Then I placed her in her crib and stared at her as she stirred and then relaxed.
I ran my hand through her hair and kissed her cheek again.
I've decided the past four month of her life that she needed to get used to me touching her hair and kissing her even while she's sleeping.
I looked down at my sleeping child and thanked the Lord for my little one.
I prayed over her for protection and warmth and for her rest.
I look at Lux and I experience blessing straight from God.
I pray for her future, that she will one day know Jesus as her personal Savior.
I pray for that gummy smile that will spread joy to others throughout her life.
These are the moments that I wish to capture.
The memories that I will one day look back on and think, "It went by so fast."
I want to embrace these times, no matter how many sleepless nights I may have.
Even with the lack of sleep, I've been given enough energy and strength, to enjoy the day with my family.
Sometimes I'm dragging physically, but mentally, I'm strong because I'm determined not to let this day go to waste feeling sorry for myself.
So rich with moments that I've chosen to save and store, even without my phone.
To love and cherish the days I have with my little one, because one day, this will all only be a memory to remember.